Otherwise, The Stars Keep Shining

Haven’t heard from the job position but alas, if I didn’t get it…I still get raises up to 17 an hour and I’m already at 16 an hour at my job; so there isn’t too bad of a thing for me. A few things occurred in the last few days like my mother in law’s birthday and while I think they hate and maybe just tolerate me because of my mental illness, and that my husband Jose won’t ever divorce me—–It’s been 18 years together, and married 12 years; it isn’t happening. So they are stuck with me for better or for worse and it’s definitely for worse!

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All The Tidings In The World

EDIT: Have an ulcer and/or inflammation in my stomach connecting to my esophagus because of my bariatric surgery/gastric sleeve, which doesn’t happen a lot but can happen. Therapy went well, but I’m cutting it off because I can’t forgive myself nor my mother for all the hurt she caused me and continues as I take medication and suffer from BPD because of what she does. It’s a constant reminder of her failure as a person and parent to love and actually nourish her child, me. Tomorrow I see my pain/spine doctor and I’ll for sure get into physical therapy, though to point it all out, I’m getting a EGD and colonscopy to confirm these diagnosis that’s happening with my stomach and rectum. 

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