Sooooo I’ve been hypomanic so my doctor or rather my psychiatric nurse practitioner bumped up my mood stabilizer from 1 mg to 3 mg and it’s been helping. I’ve been in a contact good mood and it’s been destructive and it’s more than an elated mood but rather impulsivity and irritability and being able to stay asleep–trouble sleeping, racing thoughts and for me spending lots of money that we don’t necessarily have and it’s put a big strain on my relationship with my husband. So, we’ve been fighting more and more because of it but I quickly realized that something was wrong when talking to my NP and finally got my meds adjusted and seeing a therapist or clinical social worker that does CBT. I’m pretty much in remission for my BPD aka my Borderline Personality Disorder which I worked on a long time with. Anyhow, with that resolved, I’m ready to go back to work and I already have my new schedule.

Surgery went well and honestly? It sucked afterwards because for two weeks I was on a liquid diet but now back onto soft foods now for a month. I still have a month off work. Thank goodness. I’m being paid for it due to short term disability. Thank goodness again! Back into gaming again and found my old save file for Xenogears. Loving the game on the PS Vita. Old school jrpgs are for me. I’m healing up nicely according to the doctor.

So, it’s official. I left my gynecologist doctor and office because they couldn’t treat me correctly for my endometriosis since she wasn’t specified in that field–not to mention that they were always booked and busy. It sucks. I only went with them on the recommendation via my retiring male gynecologist, and the fact that they were near and had several offices–but they are way overbooked etc; to the point of frustration but I wouldn’t dare go back to this practice again for those reasons. Plus, I didn’t want to bother with therapy, pelvic therapy and wait three months instead of being referred to a specialist. Plus my moods have been tanking because of pain–pain from my endometriosis. It’s a trigger. Pain is always a trigger. Pain was always used against me by everyone I knew that took care of me and whatnot, so it’s sucky either way.