Upcoming: New layout that is both responsive and beautiful coming soon. This layout now, fting. the Phoenix Wright cast is just temporary via Snowdrops aka Karen. Don’t forget to give her a visit via my exit page. She is my much wonderful friend and also, how has admin Shelly been? Much better after going to therapy and getting shots in my pelvic area to help relieve the tension. It has really helped me a lot and I cannot discount how much it costs in the end because it’s still expensive despite my great insurance because in America, there’s no such thing as single health care nor socialized medicine in any respects. I don’t have to recount the horrors that people would rather die than get help…but I have no choice. Pain, or rather being in pain has put a big damper on my moods and it’s why when I did telahealth with my psychiatric nurse practitioner that we changed nothing but the placement of how I take my anxiety meds. It’s a miracle!
Okay, I lied, there’s no miracle, just a better management of my anxiety and sadly, I’m not doing over 20,000 steps each shift at work, though to be honest, I am fine because work is fine and flexible about my medical issues and surgeries. I even work full time to qualify for short term disability and it has helped my husband and I, especially when I’m not at work and recovering. The shortest time was two weeks for it and I still received back pay. Work is work. Though someone quit because their SO got a better position elsewhere and could be a stay at home person. As much as I want that– I can’t do that even when I was recovering, I had to do something and working helps with a lot of my anxiety and independence, which I love plus I can have extra money over here and there, to do things like upkeep my hair and keep drinking Starbucks. Don’t judge too harshly, I can’t drink soft drinks and juices are few inbetween that I do like and can tolerate. I got bariatric surgery back in 2021, and while it has helped me lose the weight, I wouldn’t do it again. I wouldn’t because I have/had complicated and being limited on what I can and do eat/and drink is difficult.
I went from 221 lbs to 114 lbs which is my ideal weight for someone that is 4’9″ or, rather 145 cm tall, and 100 kgs to 51 kg is astounding to be frank. I did it originally for my back because I woke up at age 30+ and couldn’t walk or stand up straight, turns out that I have degenerative disc disease and sciatica and that’s where the bariatric surgery did for me in 2021 before GLP-1s like Wegovy which is used to keep in check my hormones due to my endo. and spikes in hunger. It sometimes hurts on holidays because everyone stuffs them silly and I realized as someone of hispanic heritage despite being half, that food is important, too important. And American portions are out of control when it comes to people and I can see it within the huge amount of food, but it’s something I’ve had to accept slowly. Though getting the bariatric surgery was difficult because I was even given a psych evaluation and I have no problems with food and just eat to live, really. I eat because it’s required like sleeping, though unlike sleeping, I like it because it’s bonding time with my dog and I and sleep is necessary more than food can be. You cannot live without sleep and whatnot, though to be frank again, it is what it is with me when it comes to food. Either way, it’s great to be a good size for my back without worrying about pain. Pain. That triggers me badly.
Then Texas two weeks ago decided to freeze up and OMG, I was stranded at home for nearly 3 days at home, unable to get into work but I tell you, I do not get paid enough for what I do at work and what I manage as a supervisor because a lot of these people are younger than me and are pure children, lazy and whatnot. No good work ethic or whatnot. It’s frustrating. Why are you at work if you don’t plan on giving it your own or even working in general and dicking around?
Then our car is slowly dying via the transmission so we’re scrambling up money to find something that’s good and doable for 5k or more,no more than 10k, but still, it’s frustrating that this has to happen to both of us in this matter and the fact that last year, we ended up owing because of them not taking enough taxes out of my paycheck each pay day. It’s frustrating either way but hopefully, that’s all fixed.
