A Paw For Good Luck

What’s to say other than I finally got a new layout and it’s fabulous! It’s done by the lovely Karen down at Snow Drops.org, which is another awesome affiliate which you should visit! You won’t regret it, either~ Enjoy this new layout featuring four different detectives from the Danganronpa and Persona series each with their own quirks and traits. You’ll recognize each and every one of them including some spoiler ones like Shuichi and Kyoko. Either way, this week has been trying to get on my last nerves for the last time…

I’ve finally been working my desired hours and while, the store is closed Christmas Day, I’m still stuck on Christmas Eve working until 7:30 pm or so until we close which is fine because honestly? Bonus hours though work has been fine, I haven’t been with being very sick and whatnot but I’m recovering now; though work threw me another bone and I’m slowly realizing that I owe 600 USD from being overpaid due to sick time or vacation time and I’m trying to waiver it because I was on sick leave getting my gallbladder taken out through that whole month. I’m annoyed that this is happening and that I’m expected to pay it back but as I’ve stated, I’m looking into getting it figured out because it was their mistake, not mine when I wasn’t in position to work. It’s annoying.

Finally done giving my Christmas gifts to people sans a few people like my husband’s and I’s best friend Ryan; He’s hard to pin down because of his work schedule and working for IBM or whatnot.Christmas is hard for me because I have to be around family that’s difficult or doesn’t like me much despite being married to my husband for nearly 11 years and together for 15 or more years. They sort of leave me out and while I do have nieces and nephews on my husband’s side, I’m not known as the aunt but rather as the wife. It’s humiliating and while trying to say anything about it, it leads to conflict. Oh well. I go for my husband’s sake but honestly, they don’t make me happy nor do they really care about me as a person. I doubt neither in laws know about things I like etc; and I hate having giving gifts for the kids because they get enough from their parents and their grandparents (my in laws); so why do I have to keep giving and spending money on gifts that are thoughtless?

It goes back to a lot of complicated emotions but it’s whatever, honestly. Though I’m waiting for the new year for my new teeth via 7 crowns in my mouth on top teeth and new glasses which always seems to perk me up. I love my new set of glasses and realize that I’ll have a new smile…without my gap. It’s gonna be weird. I get my crowns on the 2nd, not even the first because I’m off that day.

Eiher way, I’m trying to feel better these days..trying to restart therapy because I had to end it prematurely as my hours wouldn’t allow me to continue it. I don’t know if therapy is really beneficial with all the thoughts jumbled up in my head and trauma that’s so severe that it has cracked my personality. It sucks, honestly, but otherwise, holidays are fine minus the stupid customers sometimes and even then, I’m more mad at the machines giving me issues than the customers, themselves. It stands to reason that machines will machine and break down any given day especially self check out machines as they are quite delicate and annoyingly built.

I don’t know if blues count for anything but I can’t wait until the holidays are over for once and for all. They are annoying.